my school

the only reason people go to school(besides my evil parents making me) is to be with friends. well when you only have one friend that misses a lot of school its kinda hard. my hole school says to me daily 'its not halloween'. there all idiots. they dont get that i like to be different and an outcast. the only way your popular now a days is if you a dum preppy blond cheerleader whos daddy buys them everything they could ever want. did i mention school sucks!!!!!!!!! and i hate my life.

snaping

im about ready to snap, i cant take it any more. i just want to give up say good bye one last time. some of you ill miss you and some i wont. i dont think i can take not having my friends with me at all times. i talk to my self more than any normal person. i should never ever be left a lone i do very bad things when im alone

so tired

i havent slept in like 3 weeks well ok not 3 weeks only three days but still its a lot of sleep to miss.

books

i used to hate books but now i use them to get a way from life. to let me forget if only for a little while. get my self into a book and i cant put it down. i want to become the person in the book, cuz the always have the perfect life. well sadly i dont so ill just have to keep escaping in to the books.

my parents

my mom has serious problems. she was a drunk but is now a drug addict. my mom & dad dont know that i know but i do sadly. i walk home from school and open the door and smell pot. it sucks!!!!!!!!! 6 months ago they were charged with growing pot and selling it. then it got published in the news paper. after all that messing up my life they moved my to this hick town in the middle of know where. if i havent said it already MY LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!! im the only goth in this town so every one thinks im a weird gothic wana be. but they wouldnt know goth if it bit them on the butt. so any way my parents are bitches that i HATE!!! i dont think they know im here any more. well thats it for now later

intro

my life sucks!!!! being a gothic chick in a town full of hicks is hard, and when you have no real friends its even harder. in hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!! life is a game i just cant win and no this is not some starieo type i made up