idiot friends

life is such a downer. my best friend wants to start druggs cus he thinks it will make him less stressed, but we both know it wont. im trying to talk him out of it but right now i think id have more progress if i were talking to an orange, mabey i should just slap him. i wonder if that will work...hmmm.....what do you guys think? should i try it??? hopefully i can talk some sence in to him before he gets high and does something stupid. wait, he does stupid things no matter what...hmmm. what idiots i have as friends. so what has the rest of the world been up to?????? coment back

random

so far im not liking being a year older. it hurts, my head-ach hasnt gone away since my birthday and its killing me. and so far im a lot more tired. what is it with me and things getting worse, a lot worse before they even get a little better. i really want to go to sleep right now but i dont think i can and its way early to, my guess is this is going to be a night where i dont fall asleep till like 3 am and then i wake up at 330 only to fall back asleep at 5 and wake up at 6, but ive gone for longer on less sleep. i went for a week of getting up at 530 and going to sleep at 330 and then the whole day working my ass off, with the sheep, dogs, goats, pigs, chickens and everything elase. ok this sounds odd but for you guys that read my blog i was wondering a few things.
1) how tall are you??? ( sry thats really random)
2) what grade do you think im in???
3) how old do you think i am???
4) do you guys have any clue where i might live???
sry those where all random questions, but i wanted to see how much you guys pay attention and read between the lines.

so called friends

hey peps

i hate my so called friends, have i ever said that? i dont think i have thats why im saying it now. most of them dont give a shit about anyone but them selfs and it buggs the crap out of me. i dont like birthdays that much so they made it there job to annoy me that hole day by nonstop singing happy birthday, god help me. aparently there going to call me very early to wish me happy birthday, god help me, wait i think i already said that, oh well, the way tomarrows going to go im going to need it. on monday im not going to talk to them at all, i done with there dramaticness and bitchiness and everything elase. ive tried ot be a good friend to them and i have but theyve been no where close with me...... jerks.

food

i think ive finally become less stressed out then i was before......i dont think im going to kill someone, well not unless you really really tick me off. i really feel like junk food right now but like normal theres no food in the house. what sound really really good right now is a doungut but i dont htink i can confince my parents to go to the store to buy one. sry if i made you hungry while you were reading this.

friday

friday was kinda random in the way it worked. it was also the fisrt day of spring.





1st period, history: we doing this just say no thing, and the section we did today was about stress and the whole lesson was based on me!!!!! gahhhhhhh!!!!!!! i got asked all but two questions which got asked to my two best friends. figures something like this would happen to me. way to add more stress to me.





2nd period, science: went by like i normal day, everyone talking and the teacher trying to controll us but not doing a very good job.





3rd period, math: we had sub who acutally likes me. i got stuck helping the two people that have be absent for the last two days, but i got extra credit.





4th period, elective: its are last day in this class so we got to have a party!!! yay!! we watched the movie firehouse dog, and got to eat candy and popcorn and soda. i talked with my only friend that was in that class the whole time and we played truth or truth. pretty fun period.





lunch: pizza for lunch, but sadly its the school pizza so it sucked....blah.



5th period, english: same class room as math, so we had a sub here to who gave us a quiz that we all knew about but the idoits complained and ended up getting us more work.

6th period, PE: we had to run extra to day cus the idoits in are class screwed it up. ive been sick 4 a whlie now and i cant take any deep breaths so i almost killed my self. after which we had to do dancing and the poeple i had to dance with i just cant dance with. i can dance with anyone execpt those people. figures.

after school: i get home only to find my parents asleep and the door lock so i had to jump in throu my window again. i get nagged by my brother telling me i have to get a job this summer, great! my freind wont stop buugging me asking me whats wrong? and when im about to tell them they start talking about how he thinks his girlfriend is going to break up with him. i then spend the rest of the night by my self in my room trying to sleep only to fall asleep at 6 am and the dog waking me up at 630 to be let out. after which i try to go back to sleep but it doesnt work out. im about to sleep at about 10ish and these religous people that are trying to convert people show up at my door and my parents are to lazy to get up and answer the door so i have to do it. and now i sit here typing this trying not to stress out more then i already am.

well sorry that was friday and today.

rambling

i posted this on my other blog but most of the people that few this one dont few the other.

ever one up her in sucksville thinks it descripes me





Rambling words inside her lines,

complaints written just to rhyme.

Thoughts scribbled so she can vent,

who cares really what was meant.

Here it comes, drop it, let it fall,

It's just one more mistake after all.

Never perfect only fools would try,

her imperfection laid bare and dry.

Madness reigns inside her mind

run away but still left behind.

Written secrets tainted with tears,

ring hallow in a critiques ears.

Read your list and only sighed,

no knowledge given, still confined.

Expectations chain the playful pen,

who trips and falls in her attempts.

Who reached out to touch a few,

yet refused to bow down to you.

Amateur took flight in early spring,

hounded by words to clip her wings.

Stones thrown to maim and bruise,

but she's to numb from past abuse.

Small words have no importance,

describe this bird with assonance.

Little bird what do you care?

Your morning song no mystery bares.

Childish wish just to be free,

who understood but refused to be.

This golden title to hot to hold,

flower wilted under sun to bold.

Withdrawn to shadows for relief,

slips out for sun light like a thief.

Ink addiction from the core,

only obeys the need for more.

What she feels written her way,

another ramble, another day.

god help me

god please help me....im begging you. have you ever felt like the next person that ticked you off even the slightest youd most liklely snap there neck? i almost did that today about 15 times. everything is over welming me right now, GOD FUCKEN HELP ME!!!!!! no one got that today i didnt want to deal with any of them. they didnt get it after i warned them time and time again. god i dont think i can make it to the weekend. god help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why the hell does my life have to be so fucked up??? why??? why?? why??? god help me.....

st. patrics day

well my saint patrics day sucked.....no one up here in hick down likes to dress up for it.........only a few of us wore green, and since when does marker on the hand count??? oh well i dont think i should be to surprized, but then again i am.

board half to death

well im board half to death right now, i just got done cleaning my room.......oh and while i was doing that my book shelf fell on me!!! it hurt like hell. im going to be black and blue tomarrow morning......great. in other news, its friday the 13th......im not really any more unlucky then i usely am, so thats good.....i think. me and my best friend are in a fight, because she made the newish girl, i think i told you a bout her, cry. the newish girl isnt that smart and cant run and is very very very small. so i yelled at her telling her that its not ok to do that to anyone, but she felt it was "nessisary", so whateve...im still a little ticked about it. my too close friends who where going out...i think i told you about them to, well the broke up to day. she broke up with him and neither of them are taking it to well. and the guy here might get held back next year cus he only has like a 1.33 GPA and for those of you who dont know what that is its a grade point average. well now i think ive got you guys up to date but im not sure. if i rember anything elase ill tell you.

Picture

i find this picture so cool, i dont kow why but it kinda looks like what i think of my soul.

my brothers, my sister-in-law, my aunt, my uncle, my cosin, my grandparents, my parents, my necies and me

the one in blue is my youngest brother jermey...with the bone throu his nose...hes holing his daughter roxie. in brown is my over protective brother holding the one he over protects his daughter aurora.... but most call her rory.

as you can tell i got to visit all my family this.....well last.......well the week before that......no it was the pevious one....... i dont know when it was but it was in febuary...i think. any who my brother and my neice came down from washington dc to visit. i didnt relize how much i missed them, how cute my nices is and how over protective my brother is. but besides the over protectivness i luv my bro.....well most of the time. my youngest brother(still older then me) on the other hand still has a lot of work to do. this brother has a bone throu his nose and ears and a lot of tattoos. but he is also the funnist. but thats getting me of subject. hold on my dog wants un to the bed...shes too fat to get up on her own. now what was i saying....i lost my trian of thought....oh i rember....my family. any why, we had a lot of fun, we had all of the family over. my favorite out of all of them is my sister in law sage.....shes my brother with the bone throu the nosses wife. but shes the nicest... and she relates to me, she never fit in any where eather.

im back

ok...... im finaly better. im still getting over my cold but im able to get out of bed now, thank god!!!!

im going to post everything that happened during the last 2 weeks on the next to posts