still hating life

i still hate my life. i might be able to handel it if i didnt have to live here in hell. i dont think my `rents get how much i hate it up here, how much its killign me. everytime i try to say something they change the subject or say something like " there just jelouse of you" or "the guys just like you" or some thing like that witch we all know there just making up i mean sometimes its true but when its the whole school its not. i dotn think they get what im cababel of and how much i just want to get a way ill do just about anything i dont think i can make it to 18 bye that time ill have run a way or be dead.